Today is one of those days where I just don't feel like I fit in with the world. I spent most of my day locked up in my room, reading old yearbooks, trying to make sense of what I am feeling and why. It's not that I feel alone, because there are people all around me that love me and care about me. I guess I just feel isolated, and... well, I don't know how to describe it. But not alone. I will never be alone. Nobody is ever alone.
I don't like feeling this way, especially when there are probably more than a million things to be happy about. There's the fact that we got a whole week off of school, which was more than nice. It was extremely relieving and relaxing. And I got to see my wonderful friends and family all week. I guess it's just one of those days... it'll pass. Tomorrow is a new day.
Confused. That's the word. I'm extremely confused about many things. Well, I suppose it's okay to be confused. It's leads you to think about more than just our problems. It leads us to think about everything around you and if it should effect you in the way it does anymore. And I hate deciding. Decision-making is definitely NOT my expertise.
Well, I just had to ramble about that. But don't forget, tomorrow is a new day.
Friday, January 20, 2012
Friday, December 9, 2011
Guess what?
Guess what?
1. I've heard that pickle flavored Lays and mango popsicles are a great combination (Courtesy of my BFF Taylor).
2. Our school jazz band is playing next Friday, the last day of school before winter break, and we get to play for an hour and a half straight!
3. Our school has a concert next Thursday and I'm playing in the orchestra and the jazz band.
4. I got accepted to play in the 8th grade honors orchestra for a day! So nervous!
5. There are cheetos in our car. Yum.
6. There is a lunar eclipse tomorrow at 6 AM, and Ruthie and I are getting up at 5:45 to go see it. You can call us crazy, but it's not going to happen again until 2014, so it's very rare. AND, I've never seen a lunar eclipse before. Or a solar eclipse. But solar eclipses are much more rare.
7. This isn't something I'm happy about, because it's probably not good, but the moon moves a centimeter closer to earth each year. That means in a century, the moon is a metre closer to the earth! Scary...
8. I got to hold my newborn baby cousin today! And I got to see my aunt, uncle and my other cousin Chloe! :)
9. I have very soft fleece snowflake pajama pants. Comfy.
10. I got to swim in the hotel pool tonight, and I have my santa hat!
11. It's almost Winter Break!
12. We get to go to Maine in a week! I need to start packing!
13. When I go to Maine, I get to see my grandma's new dog Lucy and all the other dogs and cats, oh, and of course, my family. I love my family. :)
14. I'm very happy right now! :) :) :) :) :) :)
Anyway, my fingers wouldn't stop moving so I decided to type what I'm happy about. I'll try to write more often! Toodles! :P
1. I've heard that pickle flavored Lays and mango popsicles are a great combination (Courtesy of my BFF Taylor).
2. Our school jazz band is playing next Friday, the last day of school before winter break, and we get to play for an hour and a half straight!
3. Our school has a concert next Thursday and I'm playing in the orchestra and the jazz band.
4. I got accepted to play in the 8th grade honors orchestra for a day! So nervous!
5. There are cheetos in our car. Yum.
6. There is a lunar eclipse tomorrow at 6 AM, and Ruthie and I are getting up at 5:45 to go see it. You can call us crazy, but it's not going to happen again until 2014, so it's very rare. AND, I've never seen a lunar eclipse before. Or a solar eclipse. But solar eclipses are much more rare.
7. This isn't something I'm happy about, because it's probably not good, but the moon moves a centimeter closer to earth each year. That means in a century, the moon is a metre closer to the earth! Scary...
8. I got to hold my newborn baby cousin today! And I got to see my aunt, uncle and my other cousin Chloe! :)
9. I have very soft fleece snowflake pajama pants. Comfy.
10. I got to swim in the hotel pool tonight, and I have my santa hat!
11. It's almost Winter Break!
12. We get to go to Maine in a week! I need to start packing!
13. When I go to Maine, I get to see my grandma's new dog Lucy and all the other dogs and cats, oh, and of course, my family. I love my family. :)
14. I'm very happy right now! :) :) :) :) :) :)
Anyway, my fingers wouldn't stop moving so I decided to type what I'm happy about. I'll try to write more often! Toodles! :P
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Turkey, gravy, and mashed potatoes, oh my!!!!
Thanksgiving was great except have a small stomach and didn't eat that much except some turkey and mashed potatoes and gravy. Oh, and cheesecake.
Tomorrow is black Friday and it is all the rage. Walmart opens at midnight (in an hour and a half). People have been trampled to death by ecstatic shoppers scrambling from store to store. I'm not going to die by getting trampled. I mean, it's such a morbid and stupid way to die! Who dies by getting tramples? Ever?
Anyway, my point is, I'm not going shopping. I'm going shopping on Saturday with my best friend at half price books and tomorrow my sister and I are going to Bartell's and QFC.
Well, happy thanksgiving! And even though it's really early, happy holidays!
Tomorrow is black Friday and it is all the rage. Walmart opens at midnight (in an hour and a half). People have been trampled to death by ecstatic shoppers scrambling from store to store. I'm not going to die by getting trampled. I mean, it's such a morbid and stupid way to die! Who dies by getting tramples? Ever?
Anyway, my point is, I'm not going shopping. I'm going shopping on Saturday with my best friend at half price books and tomorrow my sister and I are going to Bartell's and QFC.
Well, happy thanksgiving! And even though it's really early, happy holidays!
Monday, November 7, 2011
-Blank- (again)
There's never anything to talk about on this blog anymore. I need to think of a new strategy. Sure, I'm writing a book, chapter by chapter, but I'm not brave enough to post it for all of the world to see. Noooooo way. No way.
I just put my thinking hat on. It's not working.
Any ideas, anybody?
Please?
I just put my thinking hat on. It's not working.
Any ideas, anybody?
Please?
Saturday, October 22, 2011
-Blank-
I couldn't think of a title, so I'm just calling this blog post a blank.
Life's pretty good besides the fact that my English grade is down because I failed yet another AR test. I don't see the advantage of not letting middle schoolers read what they want to read. And since I'm in honors, I have to read above a 6.5 reading level, and that means mostly classics. Ugh.
Anyway, I made the jazz band! And I improved my mile time by a minute and two seconds since the beginning of seventh grade.
My obsession with chemistry persists, and I don't have a slight clue why.
Last year our school dance was kind of stupid, so this year my BFF and I are kicking it back at her place on Friday and we are going to watch cheesy love stories and eat popcorn, soda, and ice cream. Yum.
Well, it's late, I'm tired, and I'm going to church tomorrow, so goodnight! :)
Life's pretty good besides the fact that my English grade is down because I failed yet another AR test. I don't see the advantage of not letting middle schoolers read what they want to read. And since I'm in honors, I have to read above a 6.5 reading level, and that means mostly classics. Ugh.
Anyway, I made the jazz band! And I improved my mile time by a minute and two seconds since the beginning of seventh grade.
My obsession with chemistry persists, and I don't have a slight clue why.
Last year our school dance was kind of stupid, so this year my BFF and I are kicking it back at her place on Friday and we are going to watch cheesy love stories and eat popcorn, soda, and ice cream. Yum.
Well, it's late, I'm tired, and I'm going to church tomorrow, so goodnight! :)
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Gone...
How do you feel when something (or someone) you loved and cared about so much is gone? Just... gone. Like, 'You will never see them again in this world', kind of gone.
Well, just remember, if something like that happens to you, just remember that God wants that to happen. It may be for your own good, or maybe He has some special little reason of His own. But it's always going to be a good reason.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.
To me, this means that we shouldn't let ourselves believe our explanations for why things happen the way they do, and why they do. We need to just understand that this was God's plan for us, and that whatever happened took place for a good reason. God doesn't want to make you sad, he wants to make you happy. So don't be angry at God. What did He ever do to you?
But trust God. He has a great plan for you, no matter who you are. He will make your path of life clear if you listen to him.
Well, just remember, if something like that happens to you, just remember that God wants that to happen. It may be for your own good, or maybe He has some special little reason of His own. But it's always going to be a good reason.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.
To me, this means that we shouldn't let ourselves believe our explanations for why things happen the way they do, and why they do. We need to just understand that this was God's plan for us, and that whatever happened took place for a good reason. God doesn't want to make you sad, he wants to make you happy. So don't be angry at God. What did He ever do to you?
But trust God. He has a great plan for you, no matter who you are. He will make your path of life clear if you listen to him.
Monday, September 5, 2011
W-w-w-waaatttteeerrr!
Who loves water? I sure do. A few minutes ago I realized how dry my throat was. I drank a HUGE glass of water just now, and yet my throat is STILL dry.
Do you ever have a thirst that you can't satisfy, or possibly a hunger?
Whether it's literally a hunger or a thirst, or if it's just a metaphorical thing, we all have hungers or thirsts that we can't satisfy.
For me, something I can't satisfy is my greed for God to talk to me. Because all of my church friends at camp said, "Ohhh God talked to me! It was so cool!"
And I'm just standing there like, "Oh, yeah. That's so cool." And I'm secretly thinking in my head, Why can't that happen to me? Why am I the odd one out here?
And sure, I've felt God's presence, but He's never talked to me.
That's really the only thing that I have a never ending thirst for in life, besides the literal things like what happened to me just a few minutes ago.
But even if it seems like your hungers of thirsts won't ever be satisfied, maybe they are not supposed to be, maybe they are. It depends on what it is. But I'm not going to get into that.
But... don't get dehydrated, literally. Haha.
Do you ever have a thirst that you can't satisfy, or possibly a hunger?
Whether it's literally a hunger or a thirst, or if it's just a metaphorical thing, we all have hungers or thirsts that we can't satisfy.
For me, something I can't satisfy is my greed for God to talk to me. Because all of my church friends at camp said, "Ohhh God talked to me! It was so cool!"
And I'm just standing there like, "Oh, yeah. That's so cool." And I'm secretly thinking in my head, Why can't that happen to me? Why am I the odd one out here?
And sure, I've felt God's presence, but He's never talked to me.
That's really the only thing that I have a never ending thirst for in life, besides the literal things like what happened to me just a few minutes ago.
But even if it seems like your hungers of thirsts won't ever be satisfied, maybe they are not supposed to be, maybe they are. It depends on what it is. But I'm not going to get into that.
But... don't get dehydrated, literally. Haha.
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